Monica Lewinsky on Affair With Bill Clinton 20 Years Later: ‘I Was Mortified’

An emotional Monica Lewinsky revealed that she contemplated suicide after her affair with President Bill Clinton was first uncovered. “I remember looking out the window and thinking the only way to fix this was to kill myself, to jump out the window,” Lewinsky says in an upcoming A&E special. The former White House intern is featured in a six-part docuseries called “The Clinton Affair,” which debuts Sunday. When news of the affair broke, Lewinsky was still in love with the president, she admits.